it is truly beautiful to see the snow fall at the beginning of spring. fresh white powder, freezing cold. flowers in blossom, trees in bloom. i have never experienced anything like this in my life. that seems to be the reoccurring theme these past weeks, months, years even. i'm still new. i've seen a lot and experienced more than a good amount of other people my same age and same socio-demographic. i still seem to miss the "stories" and "responses". when is a man wise enough to live in the time God has given him, and not in the past or future? i know many men that are two and three times my life span and/or experiences and still don't seem to have that wisdom, mindset, focus. saturday i was FURIOUS. i woke up with that mind set. i think i may have fallen asleep with it, too. i picked fights all day. i said things out of anger and frustration i am still trying to make up for. i also blatantly felt His pull and saw His signs. i shrugged them off as coincidences and hocus pokus. i knew what it was! i could recognize Him! and i still did this!...
what if i don't learn the wisdom in time? what if i don't find that mindset? what if i fly by that focus and make fun of it? what if i already have?
His endless love and forgiveness is incomprehensible, and it endures with me forever.
i am asking this week. And i will be watching, waiting, listening.
